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I’d like to tell you all a little story: About a little girl who got her life ruined that particular day. After what happened, she dared not talk to strangers ever. She didn’t trust anyone and she felt like it was all her fault. Ever since that day, her rare trust in people has been broken so many times, she has nothing left for anyone anymore.

She has been damaged so much by what happened that day, it fucked up so much more than he ever thought about before doing it. He just wanted some ‘fun’ and she got her life ruined..
After that, she hated him and everyone else for that matter. Her family doesn’t understand, her friends barely know and she hates herself for still feeling responsible..

Having her trust put to the test several times and still not finding someone who can keep her going – It makes her feel so alone and even though she has friends who love her, they can’t possibly understand  if she refuses to speak of it.

She is scared and her thoughts turn more and more damaging with each day.

Nothing works she can do nothing to escape the feeling of being lost.
Things make it go away for a while, but deep down it’s eating her up..

These days all she wants is for it to go away and for things to be better, but she doesn’t really believe they will..

Exactly a week ago, I was in town to watch two matches of handball. I had tons of fun but afterwards, we went to McDonald’s and when we went out to the car again, my phone was missing. O: I was of course in huge panic because now we needed to have it blocked and we needed to get a new SIM-card (or whatever it’s called) and all these things to make my old phone work. -.-

When we came home, we tried to make a call to make my phone company block the card, but we got a machine and it was in Swedish, I didn’t get a single word o_o So my dad was pissed as fuck, since we’re Danish, the least you can expect is for the emergency phone service to be in fucking Danish too!!

Anyway, after a few hours, we had it blocked, since we called and got a real person  xD We even drove back to McDonald’s and the venue of the matches, but we didn’t find it.

We were so scared it had been used to call the States or something, because then I’d have to pay for that since I wouldn’t technically be able to prove it had been stolen x_x

The next day, I went into town to get a new card for my old phone, and they were so sweet, they just moved my number to that card, so I had the least amount of loss. I only lost the phone itself and I only paid 1 DKK for it :P 

Then yesterday, my niece suddenly knocked on my door, and said: “I have something for you” and then she handed me my phone! I was so happy, I just gave her the biggest hug and kiss ever, I was so happy to have it back, I really love that phone :i

So now, I didn’t lose anything, and from now on, I’m extremely careful about where I put my phone!

Karin, you’re my hero!! <33 I love you so much, sweetie! ^^ 

Hi everyone <3



I have this feeling inside, that won’t go away. It’s a feeling that is hard to describe, but I’ll give it a try anyway.

It feels like someone came in with a hammer and shattered the little glass thing I called my future.  I feel like a small furry animal that has been burned by the fire.  I’m surprised, more like chocked. I feel like my trust in people is really being tested again, this time being about the 4^th time for real. And it only gets harder and harder to deal with..

I’m scared, it’s not going to be worth it to try and trust anyone with my love again. I gave away the most precious thing I could for someone to take care of, and it ended up being broken again. How can I trust someone to take proper care of it?

My sense of reason tells me that of course I can trust you, but deep down in my heart, I know that it’s going to take a long time before I will bear myself like that to you again.. it kills me to have to say this, but it’s true.

I know it’s technically not your fault, but I really thought you’d be the last person to ever hurt me. Yet you ended up being the one hurting me the most.. You think it’s weird now, and I hate that! In my head you’re so special, but I’m not that special to you anymore. I keep thinking I want you here to hug me, but I know won’t want you to, if you actually were here..

I’m embarrassed with myself for feeling like this still. I should accept it, but it’s difficult for me /: But as I said yesterday, it should pass at some point. It has to.

There’s one good thing I got out of this. I now have my New Year’s Resolution: Never, under any circumstances am I to have anything going on with a person who’s my friend to begin with. Ever. Not despite how right it might feel, it’s not, I know out of bitter experience