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Hi everyone!

I’m so sorry for the lack of blogging lately. The last three days my computer has been to the repairs, because of it being infected. I just got it back yesterday evening. I’ve just had so many things I wanted to write about in those days and now I’m like completely blank -.-  What the hell, let’s just try and see how I can update this thing:

Right now, I’m feeling a lot better despite the constant lack of money I have. It seems to always be the problem. A few weeks ago I had a lot of problems with getting up and actually pull myself together to go to school, so I stayed home a lot.

Then this Monday I got to school and I spent the entire day talking to some amazing girls, who made me smile and forget about the restlessness and negativity. Quite often, that’s what happens, when I go to school. I forget about everything negative and just have a good time. ^^ So yesterday I spent at school with a girl I only just met and some of the guys from school. We went to the park in town and had some beer.

I learned to drink coffee yesterday too (filled with sugar but whatever, it’s still coffee) which is huge, since I never liked it and I’ve wanted to learn how to do that for ages :P I’m going to put less and less sugar in it and hopefully within a few weeks I’ll be able to drink it without sugar at all ^^ 

I’m already kind of addicted xD Anyway I’m thinking about going to school tomorrow too, even though technically I’m off Thursdays and Fridays. I just get so happy when I’m with the people out there. ;D

Gosh, I’m blabbing again. I should really learn how to do shorter posts more often Ô  But I’m just going to end this post now, so baibai everyone!!

Hi guys!

It's been ages since I posted something. I've been working on a long post ever since I posted the last time and since it's not done, I'll just make a little one this time.

I had my dad scan some pics of me from when I was in kindergarden, so I wanna show one to you :P




I remember this, getting the candybags every christmas.
I think I'm singing or something in this photo. ^^ 

What do you guys think?

Just as I promised, I’ll keep you guys completely updated on what’s going on with me. Right now I’m sitting in school, having writer’s block from the novel I’m working on. So I’m allowed to spend the time writing for my blog; god I love this place!
Just spoke to my adviser and he told me I’ll get money from the government to buy my bus tickets, which means I’m not really in that much trouble financially, though I don’t know if I actually get the money now. They should go to my account each month, but I’m actually pretty sure they don’t, he’s going to check that for me tomorrow.

And this afternoon, we’re all going to watch “Alice in Wonderland” in the big cinema in town. AND: I don’t even have to pay for it! <3

Anyway, that’s not what I wanted to talk about. This post is going to be about my nine days of pure misery. It started March 4^th and didn’t stop before Saturday the 13^th.

Day 1:  
Two friends and I were going to fly to Stockholm to see Tokio Hotel. Everything went according to planned right until the moment I got held back in front of the plane. They wouldn’t let me on the plane, because I didn’t have my passport and since I don’t have a driver’s license, I couldn’t show them and ID with my picture on it.

So I had to let the girls go and walk down to the police station at the airport to get an emergency passport made. But that apparently costs 700DKK which is basically as much as an actual passport. And I didn’t have my credit card with me. -.- 
After trying everything to convince Norwegian they had to let me though, I broke down crying and had to call Marie’s dad and have him come and pick me up. He drove me home to pack the rest of my stuff and took me to the train station, where he paid to have my ticket moved from Saturday to Thursday. He paid for food, coke, M&Ms AND he gave me 200DKK on top of that just to make sure I got home alright.

Honestly, I don’t know what I would have done if he hadn’t rescued me. I got home alright, but I was so heartbroken. I miss seeing the boys doing a show and I can’t bear the thought of not being able to see them more than that one time this tour. s:

Day 2:
I woke up feeling even more miserable than when I went to bed. Dad said he thought I had pneumonia, so I called the doctor and got an appointment that afternoon. Turned out it was some sort of virus and there was nothing to do but wait until it cleared out.
It’s always like that when I’m sick -.-‘ So I went home and felt extremely sorry for myself.

Day 5:
Since I’m on antidepressants, I have to go to checkups every other week and that day I had an appointment with him even though I felt utterly miserable when I woke up. I had to cancel another appointment I had with a councilor-thingie in town.
When I got up there, I told him I felt like shit and that I wanted to cut myself and that I had suicidal thoughts. So he sent me to the psychiatrical emergency room and after sitting there a few hours, my mum called me and I had to tell her about all of it >.< So not very comfortable!
She ended up coming out there to pick me up, just as I actually got to talk to a doctor (she said nothing and she wasn’t the best at Danish either o.o) – She wanted to keep me there. So I had to spend the night at the hospital, feeling even worse than before, trying like mad not to cry..

Day 6:
The next day, I talked to a psychiatrist and I was told I could go home. So I was so relieved. Before I thought the only solution was to be admitted to a hospital and being watched all the time, but that experience was sort of a wakeup call for me. I think I might have been fighting sort of against the pills and the psychiatrist put up my dosage of Zoloft to double amount, and recommended, that I spoke to my doctor about speeding up the treatment with the psychiatrist I’m supposed to see. And maybe talking to him about getting some pills to help me sleep. They all seemed to find my sleeping pattern peculiar.

I called my dad and asked him to come pick me up, but when I called my school, they said I had a bit too much absence so they’d prefer it if I went to school that day. So I had to. -.- Didn’t get anything done though.
Went home exhausted >.< Called in sick the next day.

Day 9:
During the trip to Copenhagen, my piercing had been hurting and irritating me. But I didn’t have the option of going to a piercer to have anyone look at it, because I was in line o.o and when I came home from Copenhagen I was sick and whining like a hungry mouse or something equally annoying.

So last Friday I woke up with my lip hurting like you wouldn’t know! x_x So I talked my dad into going with me to have the piercer look at it in the shop where I had it done. She was very surprised and said she’d never seen anything like that before. She needed to get advice from one of the tattooists who is a former piercer. It had almost grown into my lip and she couldn’t remove it. >.<
So I had to go to the emergency room to have a doctor remove it. That was just so painful, even though it wasn’t really as bad as I thought it would be.

The thing, which hurts the most, is probably seeing it not being there, when I loved it so much. It looks all wrong now >.< I’m so sad it’s gone, but it was impossible to save it. Now I have a tiny mark where it used to be and I need to clean it with the most vile-tasting thing ever invented s: And I can’t even eat or brush my teeth up to an hour after cleaning it s:

But in spite of that I’m doing so much better. My pills are working and I’m starting to get my energy back ^^ I’m praying for it to heal fast so I can have the snakebite I really always wanted ö <3

I’m off for now, I’m been ranting too long now xD

Hi again.

I have a problem. Well, I have a lot of problems actually. I'm sick as it is with a lot of mental issues. And all I really want is to be admitted to hospital, I've even found a ward and convinced my adviser at my school.

I think I said something that hit my doctor last time I was up there. I told him about all the thoughts I have and how I have done all these things, hurting myself on purpose, because I thought it made me feel better. s:

He only gave me some new pills and a new appointment two weeks later. When I came home later that day, my first thought when opening the pills was "I wonder if you could die if you take all of them at once?" o.o

The thing is, I need to make my doctor put me into hospital. My parents can't help me, they don't understand a
single thing, even though depression runs in the family. s: They ignore me when I drop hints and try to talk about how I feel. >.< It just feels like they don't care at all and they try to deny how bad I feel. - Last week she told me when she found out she was having me, she really hoped to miscarry o.o Seriously.

Anyway, I don't trust them enough I even though they say we can come to them with anything, it's not true! -.-' Before they'll take me seriously, I'll have to make a doctor say I need to be admitted to a hospital. - Which I now hope I will be able to.

- I'm off now. I'll let you know how things go this Thursday.

Hello again ^^ 
As promised, I now return with goodies :P

The 13th I had Lisa visiting me and we went to a party the first night. Before getting completely drunk and acting all weird and ridiculous, we took some pics and recorded this video:

The pictures I took can be found on my tumblr - I'm pretty sure Lisa took some better pics, but I thought I wanted to show you mine too ^^
I had so much fun this week, and the day after I had the worst hangover I've ever had xD But it was worth it! <3

TY for a wonderful week, sweetie ^^

Heej <3
I aften bestemte jeg mig for at skrive et indlæg på dansk. Fordi jeg har noget, jeg vil vise jer. Jeg har i en uges tid arbejdet på at udvide mine kreative evner inde for skrivekunsten og er begyndt at skrive digte.
Det nyeste er her. Det hedder "Dig" og er dedikeret til hver og én af mine specielle, fantastiske, forstående, skønne, vidunderlige og uundværlige veninder! I ved alle godt, hvem I er <33 

Det vi har sammen
er mere end blot venskab
Det du betyder
er langt mere
og langt dybere

Ville være intet uden dig
Din støtte er alt
Din stemme kan berolige mig
og jeg føler mig tryg
så snart jeg er i dit selskab

Er du der
er jeg glad, hel
Uden dig er jeg ingenting
Jeg skylder dig alt
Kunne jeg købe solen, månen
og alle himlens stjerner
ville de alle være dine på stedet!

Kan ikke finde ord for
hvor vigtig du er
At sige de tre ord
er simpelthen ikke nok
Du er den vigtigste person i mit liv
uden tvivl eller sammenligning

Hi guys!

Today has been a good day. Though it didn't start out too good, since my sis had to come and wake me up because I didn't answer my phone. So I had to get ready in five minutes o.o But we went to Aalborg to buy a shirt I've been in love with for ages! So I finally got it ^^



I adore this so much, I've been in love with this for ages! <33

I also went and bought Emmsie her birthday present ^^
And I preordered some stuff, among which is Lisa's birthday present too. So now I have no money left for the rest of the week xD But I'll get the rest of the money my sister owes me soon ^^
So I'll be able to pay back most of the money I owe Marie :D <3

When I came home, I started fixing my clothes and just making my apartment look nice and in the end I moved some things around. I just wanted to show you guys:






After being this active all day, I feel so good ^^ This has been the best day I've had in weeks! I really hope my pills are starting to work. I'm not sure they do, but I'm allowed to hope <3

I'm so excited about the weekend since Emma has been allowed to come and visit me! I can't wait to see her, I love her so much! <3
Her mum is supposed to call me tomorrow, just because it'll make her feel more safe about sending her daughter to meet a friend living in the other end of the country xD
Even though I'm not someone to fear at all! ö I'm most likely the last person to be scared of, but whatever xD

I was supposed to go to school tomorrow, but it's supposed to start snowing like mad and they all call it a snowstorm and even dad says he's not sure I'll be able to get home when I'm off so I'm going to stay home, since I don't want to have to sleep there o.o

I'm off now to watch some more tv, before going to bed ^^

I’d like to tell you all a little story: About a little girl who got her life ruined that particular day. After what happened, she dared not talk to strangers ever. She didn’t trust anyone and she felt like it was all her fault. Ever since that day, her rare trust in people has been broken so many times, she has nothing left for anyone anymore.

She has been damaged so much by what happened that day, it fucked up so much more than he ever thought about before doing it. He just wanted some ‘fun’ and she got her life ruined..
After that, she hated him and everyone else for that matter. Her family doesn’t understand, her friends barely know and she hates herself for still feeling responsible..

Having her trust put to the test several times and still not finding someone who can keep her going – It makes her feel so alone and even though she has friends who love her, they can’t possibly understand  if she refuses to speak of it.

She is scared and her thoughts turn more and more damaging with each day.

Nothing works she can do nothing to escape the feeling of being lost.
Things make it go away for a while, but deep down it’s eating her up..

These days all she wants is for it to go away and for things to be better, but she doesn’t really believe they will..

Exactly a week ago, I was in town to watch two matches of handball. I had tons of fun but afterwards, we went to McDonald’s and when we went out to the car again, my phone was missing. O: I was of course in huge panic because now we needed to have it blocked and we needed to get a new SIM-card (or whatever it’s called) and all these things to make my old phone work. -.-

When we came home, we tried to make a call to make my phone company block the card, but we got a machine and it was in Swedish, I didn’t get a single word o_o So my dad was pissed as fuck, since we’re Danish, the least you can expect is for the emergency phone service to be in fucking Danish too!!

Anyway, after a few hours, we had it blocked, since we called and got a real person  xD We even drove back to McDonald’s and the venue of the matches, but we didn’t find it.

We were so scared it had been used to call the States or something, because then I’d have to pay for that since I wouldn’t technically be able to prove it had been stolen x_x

The next day, I went into town to get a new card for my old phone, and they were so sweet, they just moved my number to that card, so I had the least amount of loss. I only lost the phone itself and I only paid 1 DKK for it :P 

Then yesterday, my niece suddenly knocked on my door, and said: “I have something for you” and then she handed me my phone! I was so happy, I just gave her the biggest hug and kiss ever, I was so happy to have it back, I really love that phone :i

So now, I didn’t lose anything, and from now on, I’m extremely careful about where I put my phone!

Karin, you’re my hero!! <33 I love you so much, sweetie! ^^ 

Hi everyone <3



I have this feeling inside, that won’t go away. It’s a feeling that is hard to describe, but I’ll give it a try anyway.

It feels like someone came in with a hammer and shattered the little glass thing I called my future.  I feel like a small furry animal that has been burned by the fire.  I’m surprised, more like chocked. I feel like my trust in people is really being tested again, this time being about the 4^th time for real. And it only gets harder and harder to deal with..

I’m scared, it’s not going to be worth it to try and trust anyone with my love again. I gave away the most precious thing I could for someone to take care of, and it ended up being broken again. How can I trust someone to take proper care of it?

My sense of reason tells me that of course I can trust you, but deep down in my heart, I know that it’s going to take a long time before I will bear myself like that to you again.. it kills me to have to say this, but it’s true.

I know it’s technically not your fault, but I really thought you’d be the last person to ever hurt me. Yet you ended up being the one hurting me the most.. You think it’s weird now, and I hate that! In my head you’re so special, but I’m not that special to you anymore. I keep thinking I want you here to hug me, but I know won’t want you to, if you actually were here..

I’m embarrassed with myself for feeling like this still. I should accept it, but it’s difficult for me /: But as I said yesterday, it should pass at some point. It has to.

There’s one good thing I got out of this. I now have my New Year’s Resolution: Never, under any circumstances am I to have anything going on with a person who’s my friend to begin with. Ever. Not despite how right it might feel, it’s not, I know out of bitter experience

Hi everyone ^^ 

How’s everyone doing? <3
I’m fantastic right now ^^ Yesterday it was Christmas Eve and I spent the entire day at home with my parents and aunt. It was a relaxing day and I spent it on Twitter, watching a Christmas show called “Pagten” which has an episode each day until the 24^th of December.

I was slightly annoyed when I found out I couldn’t watch the ending after sitting there all day waiting for the big finish!

Then my family arrived and we had the most amazing dinner! I love the food on Christmas Eve! *luff for daddi’s cooking*
After dinner, we went home to my sister and brother in law’s house where we danced around the Christmas tree, sang carols and had all the presents ^^

I got the first present, that has never happened before *giggle* I got so many stuff, I can’t really remember all of them, but I’m so happy with everything I got. I only got one thing that needs to be taken back. The bag I got for my mini-computer is too small, so I’ll need to have a bigger one and in a different pattern ^^ It’s all!

It was so amazing, I got so many things, I never expected so many. And I loved all of them!
The best thing about the night was seeing my nephew and niece so excited about all the stuff they got :D I love seeing other people opening presents and especially the children!
It just makes me thinks about how incredibly much I’d love to have children one day :ii

Anyway, I’d love to show pictures of all my presents, but since I don’t have a camera, I can’t s:

TOMORROW I’M GOING TO SEE LISA!! *über flail*

I’m off to be done for the night and to get some sleep, since I need to get up at 4.14 in the morning *giggle*

Hi guys ^^ 



Oh my goodness, what an insane weekend! I’ve been so low down all weekend and Monday I was sort of sick so I went to bed early o.o And when I woke up yesterday, Lisa was back home! <3

As soon as she was home it only took about 3 minutes for me to sigh and feel all the negative things go away and just be happy again ^^ I’ve never ever missed anyone this much, and it might be insane and it might not make much sense, but to the both of us, it means so much! It means that what we feel is true and it makes me know for sure, that what I feel is not just some random fling-thing.

I’m in love with her and I don’t care what everyone else thinks! <3

This weekend also meant something else: I talked to both of my sisters this weekend and told them about me and Lisa. My oldest sister kind of knew so she didn’t really have anything to say. My youngest sister actually asked me “Is she your girlfriend?” and I could do nothing but say yes. And I told her about something my dad said a few weeks ago.
Kathleen said: “And who is he to decide that?”

So I felt so much better having them both know ^^ Now we only need to convince my dad and mum o.o

Yesterday I was on webcam with Lisa all day and it just seemed like every other second there was someone behind her :P It was a bit fun because I just knew her entire family was actually looking at me *giggle*

Every time she signs in to msn, it’s always like “Oh by the way, we talked about you earlier” *giggle* 
I’m so looking forward to going to meet them in person ^^ Then they’ll have loads more to talk about *giggle*

And it’s in only three days!! *flails*  <33

Now I’m off, I need to go Christmas shopping with my parents.. o.o

I'm not too sure about that >.< 

First of all I’m just going to say, that what I’m going to write now, is most likely just going to seem like a load of crap, since it’s sort of ridiculous, I guess..

So please, don’t comment or say anything. This is just something I need to get out, because I didn’t get the chance to tell anyone all of this and it needs to get out now.

So..  Now it’s Sunday. Today has been awful really /: I had a slight hangover because of us going out last night. But it was not really the problem.

The thing is, I’m so deeply in love and right now she’s not here. She’s in Germany all damn weekend to have an amazing time with some shopping and a great concert with Bushido.
I really really wish that she has the best time, since she really deserves it <3 But I miss her god damn it! I’m not able to talk to her until she’s back home tomorrow night.

This feels like hell, I honestly can’t function when I can’t talk to her.  Everyone talks about me going to see her soon and that everything is going to be alright.
Everyone says: “Think positive, think about you seeing her in a week” but it’s not helping! I can’t think positive in any way at all I never could, so just don’t tell me something like that. It’s not helping me!

I’ve been this close to crying all day. And I know she’ll hate this when she reads it, but I can’t help it :’( I need her so badly already it’s killing me to know I’m not going to talk to her for more than 24 hours still >.<
As soon as she’s back, it will be 5 days until I’m going to  fly down to see her, I’m so excited to do that, but knowing this only makes it even more insane I have the insane need to go and see her in fucking Stuttgart!!

Ever since I signed out yesterday and she left, it felt like someone hit me in my stomach and took all my air away. I wanted to cry, but it was my birthday and I had to help my dad preparing dinner.  
All I want is for her to be here, to hug me and make everything else not matter.

I’m so sorry, baby.. I know this isn’t very nice to read and it’s so insane I’m even feeling this jealous. This is so much harder than I thought it was going to be /: I love you so much.. I can’t wait to having you back home <3333

Yesterday it was my birthday!! *dances*

Yayness! Anyway, I was supposed to celebrate it with one of my best friends, Marie, but it turned out we both actually got sick, and the snow is making it hell outside so she couldn’t make it unfortunately /:
I’m really sorry about that because I miss her so much! <33 But she’ll be here in less than 3 weeks, so we’ll be alright. Hopefully we’ll be well at that time <3

So I woke up at my parent’s house, with my dad and mum singing for me. Then I got up and opened the presents from my parents. It was a necklace with a fairy that looks like Tinkerbell, which is perfect because I want a tattoo with Tinkerbell someday.



They also gave me 500DKK, which was perfect since I need some money to spend when I go to Belgium on Saturday! *flails*

After that I went to open the present that Lisa sent for me <3 It was the most beautiful necklace, it was so cute! I love it so much, I had to wear it immediately. <3 She also sent me a bag of Skittles, which is kind of the new way into my heart *giggle*
Then there was the cutest card I’ve ever gotten! Honestly it was so amazing I just couldn’t say anything. It made me speechless :i



We then went to visit my sister and I got some breakfast. My sister, my brother in law and baby niece got me 150 DKK which just made it even better since I wished for money ^^ 

The afternoon I spent with my dad alone in the house, because mum had to work.  I talked to Marie on the phone and to Amy, Nettøh and Lisa on msn. Everybody was so sweet and amazing to me. Amy made me this:



Which I’m so grateful for, because I really didn’t expect it. That was just so thoughtful of her and even though she said it wasn’t that big of a deal, I think it was <3 I love it ^^

Nettøh was the sweetest thing, she made me the cutest video saying all these things about me. It was simply just what I needed. It made me feel so loved and it really made me realize how incredibly lucky I am to have these girls in my life! <33

I LOVE ALL OF YOU GIRLS SO SO SO MUCH!! I have no words to describe it, and normally I’m great with words Ô You all know who you are <3

At night my dad and I had my sister, brother in law and their two children come over for dinner.  Before they arrived, I had to say goodbye to Lisa :’(  She’s in Stuttgart with one of her friends, to see Bushido. I never really loved Bushido, but I’m so jealous anyway. Guess why?

She’s not going to be at home before Monday, so we needed to say goodbye yesterday. The second I shut down my computer I missed her like mad! But I had stuff to do....

Dad and I prepared dinner and when the guests arrived I got three great gifts:



The paper says, I get a ticket to the movies and dinner paid by my sister. We’re going Sunday evening to watch “Avatar” <3

The T-shirt I wore when we went out the same evening. We had made all these arrangements but everyone ended up canceling on us, so we were only the two of us o.o

But it was okay, we were practically the only girls there so we got a good load of attention = Free drinks!
None of us got drunk though xD I had an okay time, but I have to admit I felt pretty weird knowing I was not going to talk to my sunshine all weekend /:

We were there until about 2.30 am and we agreed on going home. I went straight to bed and slept until 4 pm this afternoon xD

And that was how I got a year older!

You make me smile, when no one else can
You make me think about things I never thought I would
You make me feel proud to be who I am
You make me feel better than I never thought I could

I have no words to describe
Exactly how I feel for you
Because saying those three words
Is simply not enough

You saved me, made me laugh and cheered me up
You came into my life and caught me off guard
It was the last thing I expected
But I knew almost immediately
You were different and special

Now you’re mine
I’m as happy as can be
I feel alive again
When I think about you

They say if it doesn’t kill you it will make you stronger
But I can’t be without you any longer
You only bring out the best in me
I’ll be yours forever

Hi everyone ^^ 

Alright, so I went to see a psychiatrist this Friday, to make sure I have the right diagnose. I have mentioned before, I’m pretty sure I have Asbergers Syndrome which is why I needed to have it cleared out for sure.

I went Friday and she started off my asking me all these questions and after about an hour, she told me I don’t have AS anyway. Imagine how shocking that is to learn after you’ve been told you have an incurable disease!

In the end she told me she’s sure I have PTSD, which is basically Post Traumatic Stress Disorder.

I means I am sick, but that it’s definitely curable and that she’ll be able to do that within about 5-10 sessions. I am so damn happy to know that, but it’s quite overwhelming. She told me all these things, which fit on me so much it’s almost scary. It’s like I’ve changed completely as a person. I used to be very bubbly and outgoing; I even used to have great friendships with boys!!

All that stopped, and she can make all the negative things and the pain go away. She can make me feel great and so much better.
I’ll be without huge problems after just about 3 months!

And just to be clear, people only think torture victims and soldiers suffer from PTSD, but it can also be caused by incidents a lot ‘smaller’, like in my case. It’s apparently much more common than I thought. O.o 

Anyway, the point is, my psychologist and doctor were wrong, so now I need to apply for the government to pay for the treatment, so I can get well and get an education ^^

I’m so relieved ;D
And now I’m off for bed. Daddy and I are going shopping tomorrow :D

3 things I remember, as if it was yesterday:
- The day, she was finally honest with me. >.<
- The day I learned about Lisa's feelings :i
- Last Christmas

3 things I don't like:
- Felling like I'm being selfish
- Missing
- Spiders

3 things I like:
- Writing
- Holding hands
- Christmas

3 blogs I visit daily:
Is it rude to say my own? :P
- Nettøh
- Ea
3 songs (edit; cd's) I listen to lately:
- "Bad Romance" by Gaga
- "Tik Tok" by Ke$ha
- "Hallelujah" by Alexandra Burke

3 tv-shows I'm following:
- America's Next Top Model
- A shot at Love
- Zulu Djævleræs xD

3 bloggers I'll challenge:
- I actually don't have more than two people to tag for this o.o

- Pipper
- Mariesen

That's it, I think. I'll be off now. Bye everyone ^^

Hello *waves*

So now it’s finally Christmas!
This month is so weird, I’m supposed to be all super excited about Christmas, but I don’t really think about it that much.. I have so much stuff I’m looking forward to this month I’m not really in the ‘Christmas-mood’ yet. Hopefully I will be soon though.

On the 3^rd I went to Sweden with my parents and older sister. I bought some cute stuff; a pair of skinny jeans, a T-shirt, a porcelain cupcake and a dress to wear at night when I go down to visit Lisa *giggle* 
I was going to get a digital camera, but I never got to do that xD

The next day, I went to visit Jeanette. I missed her so much and I had such a great time with her :D We took a lot of pictures and I think her sister was a bit annoyed, that we made too much noise xD

We baked gingerbread Saturday. And I suck at it*giggle* Thank god my mum is baking this Christmas :P








And she convinced me to post my wishlist on LJ (http://community.livejournal.com/th_wishlist/34002.html) So if you want to make me insanely happy, go check it out :D  

Even though I was so exhausted from the 3 hours in a bus, it was so worth it to go see her! ^^

And after coming home, Jeanette was so kind to change the look of my blog to make me start updating again :P And I just love it!

The day I was supposed to start blogging, my computer crashed with like a million viruses -.- But I had it fixed, and now I’m up and running again! But with 500 DKK less x_x

Which means no tattoo for me this month -.- I was hoping I’d get one, but I don’t have the money, especially since I’m going to Belgium as well o.o
And I still need about 5 presents.
Anyway I’m hoping for a lot of money for my birthday *giggle* 

I’m off. I’ll be back before you know it. Bye, babes *waves*

Another update for the day ^^

Today has been a day of updates. In the last month, I spend most of the time in bed, being sick. I got hit by the Swine Flu, meaning I felt awful for about 10 days and even after those, I still felt exhausted and cold for weeks. This disease is the worst thing I’ve had, I think

It’s frustrating, that all you can do is lie down and sleep, while waiting for you to feel better. /:

The worst thing wasn’t the disease, it was the fact that I lost my will to write, which is the thing I love more than anything else in this world!

I had a long long time with just nothing. And before I got sick, I slowly had myself getting addicted to RPG and suddenly it just stooped for weeks. Then I had about a week where it was okay, now it’s just totally off again..  s: I miss it, but if I write anything now, it’ll be without inspiration or passion to do good. It will be forced and then I’d rather not do it..

But now, Jeanette helped me out and I just want to update my blog all the time ^^ 

Tomorrow, I finally made my mum bake cookies *yayness*
And Denmark plays it’s first game in the next round of the World Championships! :D  

I’m off for now, I’ll be back before you know it though *giggles*

Hi guys :D



Something very huge happened a few months ago. As I talked about in the video, I have met an amazing girl, through twitter.  Her name is Lisa and I love her so much. We have been really good friends for a while before I slowly started realizing, I didn’t just love her as a friend.

She made me feel safe and I trust her with my life, and most of all my heart. I’ve found a person I can depend on, love and know without any doubt will love me back. ^^   

This is different than my friends, even though I love them just as much. This is just something else.. I don’t consider Lisa as my friend, she’s the one I want to spend the rest of my life with. <3

She makes me happy and that’s all I care about. <3

The only problem is, that she lives in Belgium. :( Which means we haven’t met her yet. And we just want to really.. But her dad is so amazing, he invited me down to spend the Christmas holiday and New Year’s Eve with them ^^  I can’t wait! I’m going in only two weeks :D I promise to take all the pictures I can and give full report when I come home ^^ 

In other words: The Diva has fallen in love *giggle*